Origin of the name Amanda: Derived from the Latin amanda (lovable, worthy to be loved). As long as I can remember, I’ve known the meaning of my first name. But, I didn’t begin to truly believe it until recently. As many other women have, I’ve struggled most of my life with very low self-esteem.
“Knowing that we can be loved exactly as we are gives us the best opportunity for growing into the healthiest of people.” ~Fred Rogers
My Own Struggles with Self-Esteem
Self-esteem issues have surfaced in a variety of ways throughout my life.
There have been times I thought that I just wasn’t pretty enough in general. Those are always rough days.
Other times I thought my face was okay, but I was too fat.
But on the worst of days, I thought there was just plain something wrong with me as a person.
As a result of all this, I would try dieting and exercising on again and off again. It was always more out of self-loathing than anything, though.
I always thought, “If I can just lose this weight, maybe people will like me better.”
Most of my teen years and my early twenties were spent trying to gain the approval of others. So, I couldn’t see that the way to earn that feeling of worthiness was to start with gaining my own approval.
Why My Weight Loss Journey Began with Self Love
When I set out to lose 40 pounds the first time, I quickly realized that the very first step would be to teach myself why I was worthy to be loved. I wanted to lose weight to feel more lovable, but I knew there had to be more to me than a slim body.
Once I realized this, I began to start each day with positive affirmations. I also started spending dedicated time paying attention to my wonderful attributes, both physical and spiritual. Suddenly, I found myself going about my daily tasks with a sense of love for myself and for those around me.
Working out became something I did because I loved my body and wanted to keep it healthy. Eating well became an easy choice because I didn’t want to harm my body with junk food.
Losing 40 pounds in less than a year became almost effortless.
It’s Not Always Easy to Remember That You are Worthy to Be Loved
Over the past year or so, as I got too busy for these reminders, my self-esteem began to plummet. And, would you know it, my weight began to creep up, too.
I started paying more attention to my thoughts and realized they were getting negative. So, I started up again with my affirmations and already feel like my wonderful self again.
Instead of spending your time wishing you could be different, notice the reasons you stand out from a crowd and make the world a better place. Notice the reasons you are worthy to be loved.
Everyone struggles with self-esteem at some point in their life. Low self-esteem has defined me for more of my life than it hasn’t. This is why repairing my self-esteem needed to be my first step in my journey toward better health.
It’s why self-esteem gets so much of my attention. It’s not always easy to maintain. But, when you know that you are worthy to be loved and truly take care of yourself, the weight will come off if it needs to and radiant health will be yours.
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